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In Zen the highest form of wisdom is living from “i don’t know”. That leaves you in the life mode of then being available to finding out. That system operates totally contrary to what the conditioned mind prefers as it’s operating system, the system that lives off of the energy of having and doing. The selfing brain needs itself to matter, to run the show in the navigation of this world. Mattering is the currency for the action figure, doing stuff that matters, having recognition come its way, especially some sort of legacy. But none of that stuff really matters, it only seems to matter to the selfing brain.

This conflict has been playing out in my head over the last three nights, causing fitful sleep at best, and downright insomnia at times. There is no way to turn off the thoughts, they come of their own accord, just like breathing and pumping the blood. The mind feels like it is losing control of the agenda, and it will not lose that control gracefully. It will only subside in time after there is no action on the thoughts, only a benign listening to them.

And what does all this have to do with this website. It reflects directly on the lack of mattering in the context of what I create, photography, art, whatever it may be. I need something to do, and what I do is fun, so I expect to continue doing it. What comes of it really and truly doesn’t matter.

Cheers!